what makes the one to shake you down?

wel i like rich again. and aubrey said he told her he likes me again to but i dont think im ready for this whole thing again. you can ask some people that went to school with me last year about it and theyd tell you that i was a pain in the ass!! we'd break up and get back together constantly. ok 3 times but still. thats a lot in a little over five months time. argh! i dont kno what to do. i wanna shoot myself and be done with it! naa i dont have the balls. literally.